wHy iSh iT shO diFfiCUlt ta hAte somEone...

we got gold.
ha ha ha.
nothing much ta say it's all in the memories...

c0Me ta think of it...maybe if i keep reciting that in my head i'll grow ta hate u one day.

i wanna hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u
hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u hate u ...

but i can't.

u see i hate it
u see i hate u
u see i hate it when i hate u

I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close…

not even a little bit…

not even at all.

u guyS aRe goNna die...i'm goin avRil

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

sHoUld hAf poSted this LonG agO

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

everything ish kao gan jue.
i like it when i do things according to my gan jue.
intuition.feeling.faith.
what i rely on since im blind and deaf.
possibly why i do things better with my eyes close. haha ask joan bt this.

no choice ah hafta use this blog coz my new blog not man3 yue4 yet...

anyway....sheryl dun nervous until fall sick hoh...even though i noe dancing with me ish a privilege...but u dun needa be sho tense wan :P hee tell u more tmr.

(taken from somewhere somehow)
We dance for laughter,
we dance for tears,
we dance for madness,
we dance for fears,
we dance for hopes,
we dance for screams,
we are the dancers,
we create the dreams.

ShEryl : To dance is to be out of yourself. Larger, more beautiful, more powerful. This is power, it is glory on earth and it is ours for the taking.

all the dAnCers out there : Then come the lights shining on you from above. You are a performer. You forget all you learned, the process of technique, the fear, the pain, you even forget who you are you become one with the music, the lights, indeed one with the dance.

26th July.
25th July.
24th July.

im tired. fatigue. but it's all worth it.
when i saw the video juz the feeling was too overwhelming.
it's a feeling not known ta everyone only those prolly in my shoes would.
shEryl shares the same feelingz as me. it's juz great ta see everyone together. it juz touches the heart. many months of smelly sweat. hormones transfering. we feel the same passion for the dance now. finally. i feel like part of the dance. gratifying indeed. could see the tearz in jewel's eyes. we needa perform for her. for ourselves and for everyone else.
it's not the dance per se. it's us. it's the spirit. to put it in words would be understating it. basically indescribable.

i may be tearing but im smiling from the heart. it's a contradiction. it's ironic. that's how it feels when it's gonna all end...

i'm tired. extreme fatigue. but im gonna keep smiling coz thinkin of the dance juz makes me feel great.

aiy why the jap words cannot be seen..

till i decorate my new blog will still use this blog. **

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ever since the guys started to speak jap...started to reminisce abt the past. think four plus years of jap have gone ta waste.
used to be able to engage in a conversation now barely even rem how to write the kanjis. sian
probably should have went for the scholarship and go to japan then no need to stay in this place. should post some serious stuff now since i'm gonna abandon this place :(
miss my jap friends. feeel guilty not writing to them for two whole years. damn unfeeling. now worse dun think they'll understand me.
i miss jap. i miss speaking jap. i miss japan. i miss the music. i miss the people.
still rem last time my bro always remind me of the nanking massacre coz i was too nipponised haha...come to think of it two years and i lost sho much things. i lost a part of me.

joAnerz it's timeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to qie ** in history!
hiAKz. **

when i receive the inspiration i'll return u a letter sheryl. **
for now i dun wanna explain anything and dun wanna talk about anything. **
post u a chemistry related song since u gen chemistry sho you yuan. juz heard the song too even though i dun realli like the song. **

when i'm done with the blog u'll get the new address.


Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I’m down

SOME PEOPLE MIGHT JUZ FEEL THIS WAY ABT ME. THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO. IM COLDBLOODED FOR GOD'S SAKE. *TWINKZ*

this blog has changed into a messaging system hahahaha

since u tried sho hard in the audi todae....shall post the lyrics for u. without the fredrik part that ish. but u can ask from me the fredrik version if u want kz :P

It's turning out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
when i turned to leave
i couldn't believe my eyes

standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face

Chorus
(And) i was dying inside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

you said hello then u asked my name
i didn't know if i should go all the way
inside i felt my life have really changed
i knew that it would never be the same

standing there i didn't know what to say
first time looked away when i whispered your name

Chorus 2x

one hello changed my life
i didn't believe in love at first sight
but you've shown me what is life
and I now i know my love (i know it's coming right)

Chorus (fade)

surprisingly seng what u told me abt the horoscope thingee it sorta came true todae. i dunno why ure juz sho accurate.

jUz hErd gRaduAtion.
wanna leave this place as soon as possible possibly go uk or sumthing.
start a new life get a new place.
same time dun wanna leave hc dun wanna leave everyone behind.
time ta juz take flight and leave without regrets.

damn. some dd person found my blog. so now it's time ta say good bye to this address and move on to another blogg.ciaoz

*wAnkZ*

Graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And we got so blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

6th June 2003.we lost but we fought well.

i read the sms again and again.

sun yan zi imposter!!!!!!!!!

many different personalities.
many different choices.
i chose one
now it's time ta move on.

wHy is it when u dun like a person he keeps hanging around and when u truly cherish one he's never there.

to Tell the Tr-UtHh...

Oh, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

rUnNin aWay fROm ReAliTy
poSsibLy thE bEz soLuTion noW.
Dun Judge me.

Run, running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me, I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most

And I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up, let's keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running as fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
Do you think we'll make it?
We're running, keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Be, be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up